This has actually been one of my biggest concerns of my life: What is my passion? Since I was a child, I always aspired to be a veterinarian; however, actually working in the field and coming to the reality of it is different than a dream. After realizing that me and the veterinary industry were not a good fit for each other, I was honestly heartbroken and devastated. Everything I had worked for my entire life up until that point was to become a veterinarian. I always excelled in my academics, did the International Baccalaureate program in high school, chose a university that had an Animal Science program, and my only hobby was studying. It was heartbreaking to see all of my peers in my class get accepted into veterinary programs while I continuously got rejected. And it wasn’t just the continuous rejections that put me off from vet school. It was actually working in the veterinary industry for two years in different positions and fields and finding that I just didn’t enjoy it. I didn’t have the same passion as fellow coworkers. The rejections were just a sign that it wasn’t meant for me. I no longer had a passion. I took two years working easy, menial jobs while I tried to figure out what to do next. And yes, I went through a whole “mid-life crisis” and mental breakdown. I chose law because it just made sense. I still want to make a difference in someone’s life, I still enjoy research, I am logical, analytical, and argumentative. I enjoy learning, and the law is always changing. I excel at typing, which apparently is a huge asset in law, and I have great writing skills. I chose a Master program in Legal Studies to try it out and see how I enjoyed it, and I did. Now, working as a Legal Secretary, and not enjoying my job anymore, I’m wondering if law is the right path. My skills fit and it makes sense, and maybe it’s just the firm I’m working at now.

But yet again, I don’t have a passion for a particular cause. Nothing really lights that fire for me and makes me so determined to accomplish a specific goal. I always thought aspiring to be a veterinarian meant I was destined for great things, but I never truly had a passion for it. I just liked the idea of being important. I hope that one day, I find my passion and purpose. All I can do now is muddle along and enjoy life as it is and try not to worry so much.

I’ll be ready to explore my passion… once I find it.