I always only want the best for myself. I have to look out for myself because no one else will. I’ve learned the hard way that I need to take care of myself mentally and physically because the person you love and trust the most to help you can be gone the next minute. Yeah, I look for comfort and conversation from close friends, but I can still rely on myself to feel whole. It’s hard to not think about the negative possibilities. It’s hard to only think positively. Often times when I catch myself having a negative thought, I tell myself that it’s not because of the real possibility that something may happen, it’s just my biological survival instinct warning me of possible harm. It’s just an innate instinct for survival, it means nothing. I am not in any harm’s way. It’s actually a good thing my mind is reminding me of a possible negative outcome because it means my survival instinct is there, that my mind is aware of my surroundings. It means I’m alive and want to continue living. Having a negative thought is a good thing. At least that’s what I tell himself. I also tell myself that the time I spend worrying about something, such as when I used to worry that my ex was cheating on me, I could just ask him whether or not he was cheating and just trust him. Honestly, the only way I overcame the overhanging thought that my partner was cheating was because I told myself and him that I would take a leap of faith and vow to trust him. I had to stop trying to find reasons to believe he was cheating. He never cheated on me and I believe he never would have. I had to tell myself and say it out loud that I need to stop thinking the worst and thinking negatively and put my full trust in another person to not hurt me intentionally. And somehow that actually worked? From that moment on, my thoughts of him cheating ceased almost immediately. I actually believe that what you say out loud, into the universe, has a better chance of becoming true than just thinking it. I believe there is power behind saying something out loud. Not just because I believe it’ll become true just because the universe is listening, but because there is power in hearing your own voice reassuring yourself. There is power in verbally speaking rather than thinking inside your head. There’s a reason why talking things out actually works. Your words have power. All you need to do is speak your power. Imagination can lead you down some dark paths sometimes. It’s the power in your voice and your ability to catch your negative thoughts that truly changes you.