5'1" Stories

I’ve seen you put more effort into things you don’t enjoy than most people do into things they claim to love, and I’m sure you believed at some point that he was your person…

Dongsaeng

The realization that he has sociopathic traits helps me realize that there was nothing more I could have done for the relationship. I did everything I could have and it still failed due to this possible unrecognized characteristic. It was stated in another article that individuals with sociopathy are typically realized by friends or family, unusually by the individual themselves, which is entirely understandable. This is the beauty of hindsight.

You never think you’d ever come across a sociopath in your life. You think that it’s just a thing of movies, stories, and that you would never personally encounter a sociopath. You also don’t fully understand sociopathy until you’ve been on the receiving end of it. The answer to all the questions of “Why?” Antisocial personality disorder is very real. Sociopaths aren’t just serial killers or individuals that are just dead inside. He was charismatic, charming, and very loving in the beginning, just like how all relationships are. Yet the lack of empathy, manipulation, deceit, disregard for my feelings, risk-taking behavior all became apparent through time. Sociopathy may also be a factor towards alcohol abuse. Generally superficial relationships: I can only speak for my relationship with him but it was always superficial as friends. It was hard to actually have a deep conversation with him naturally. Not learning from mistakes: continuing to drink & drive after receiving a DUI. Callousness. Arrogance. Difficult appreciating negative aspects of a behavior. “I don’t see how I did was wrong,” after driving under the influence with me in the car. “I still think I was perfectly fine.” After calculating a BAC of 0.22%.

“Most people with an antisocial personality disorder don’t really seek help or treatment or even recognize what they’re doing is problematic… It can be particularly tough, Dr. Coulter says, to deal with a friend or family member who has sociopathy because of that lack of self-awareness.” Dr. Coulter