I am always anxious and hyper vigilant, but there are some things I consider to be an everyday risk that is no different than any other day. Anyone can kill me at any moment, any stranger, whether I talk to them or not.

I already tried to kill myself. If I can’t successfully kill myself what makes you think life would let YOU take me away? I’m spiritual in that way. I already tried to kill myself unsuccessfully. Life’s not going to let me live to suffer a couple more months and THEN die. I have faith in life.

If I die, I die. That’s life. I’m the type to believe I’ll die when there is no longer anything left in life to give me.