Breathe in, breathe out.

I need to keep myself calm and focused in whatever I’m doing today because being anything else would just be unproductive. I need to recenter my focus on myself. I need to remain calm rather than incite my emotions unnecessarily.

I do feel calmer today compared to the past few days. I don’t feel as sad. Maybe I’m already getting over the heartbreak, which I’m not sure is a good or bad sign. Does that mean the end is actually a good thing? Does that mean it wasn’t meant to be? Does that mean I should move on? There are a lot of uncertainties and challenges in life, things we don’t know the answer to. The only way to get through them is to take it day by day and take the time to make a decision or just let things flow and go where life takes you.

I’m usually impulsive, making a decision I know is good and healthy for myself – like my prior decision to join dating apps after the brief break up. I let my logic take over before my heart is in it. So I’m ready to just go where life takes me now, wherever that may be. (Hopefully somewhere closer to work so my commute isn’t 50 minutes one way.)