I was perfectly fine ignoring your entire existence,
being mad at the very thought of you and what you’d done to me,
what you put me through, 
or made me do to myself.

Yet, when faced with even the slightest glimpse,
I can no longer run. All bets are off.

You turn me from this strong, independent woman into a sobbing, emotional, forlorn being — unrecognizable.
I was never my own woman with you.
I put too much into you and us, sacrificing my own.

That part of me is still gone.
With you, I was never whole. Without you, I am still not whole.

You took a part of me;
My hope, my faith, my soul.
You chewed it up and spit it out,
Without a second glance or remorse.

I’d rather you be gone,
For then and only then,
Maybe… I will have peace.