2 Years

Wow, it’s actually been 2 years since my suicide attempt. I didn’t even realize it until now. I can finally say, as opposed to a year ago, that my mental health feels controlled and manageable now. I had a few dips and slips in the past few months, but things are finally feeling better. I finally feel in control of my body. I still need to work on eating better, on time, and building my appetite, and being more consistent with exercise. I have been doing yoga before bed every night except for one or two nights here and there when I would do it in the morning. I can successfully do a chaturanga from downward dog to plank, a controlled push up, and up dog. It’s the first time I’ve been successfully able to do a push up in a chaturanga, even when I was doing yoga consecutively for a year before my suicide attempt. Things are looking better. While I don’t completely believe in astrology, it does provide a sense of hope when reading horoscopes such as this one. It’s what made me realize today was my 2nd anniversary.


5 responses to “2 Years”

  1. Anonymous Me Avatar

    I’m so glad you are feeling better😀

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    1. 5’ 1” Stories Avatar

      Thank you! 🫶🏻

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      1. Anonymous Me Avatar

        You’re welcome😀

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  2. BooBoo Avatar

    Oh, girl, I’m so excited for you and btw I absolutely love the Pattern app. It’s hit my nail on its head every damn time I was feeling some type of way. Congrats on making it 2 more years. From reading most of your posts i gather you’ve been battling mental health probs for a while now. You sound as experience as I am in the exact same matters. I just really wish ppl were more aware of the seriousness of having these issues and kind of learning how to re-live our personal life while trying to appear we got our shit together around ppl that haven’t got a clue. Keep on trucking girl you’ve got this shit bagged and tagged!

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    1. 5’ 1” Stories Avatar

      Thank you! I sincerely appreciate your support and compassion. You described it very well – trying to relive our personal life while also trying to keep up an outward appearance around others. It really is like battling two different wars at the same time. The Pattern app really does resonate in times of need! It’s kind of spooky how accurate it seems sometimes haha. We* got this girl!

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