You don’t deserve my time, my thoughts, or my attention.
So why is it that I crave yours?
Why does my mind keep wandering back, wondering if you’re hurting over losing me?
Why does it make me upset when social media shows you as happy and thriving?
I know better than that.
I know better.
I knew to remove you from my life, to take out the trash, cut off the dead parts.
So why do I miss your attention?
I have so many other, healthy people that willingly give me their time, attention, and efforts.
How can my heart be so cruel?
I know better. 
But does my heart?